House Tearmainn

Last night Sunday night was a long, but good, night. No post because I needed all available time with pais. It was definitely the right choice.

There is a lot in flux… we are both likely to be starting new jobs within the next week, and the hours on hers are going to significantly impact our one on one time. I am lucky enough to have choices of where to go, but any of them are likely to be more hours than I have been doing at my current job.

Plus the brief period of having violet in the household has brought a lot to light in terms of what our needs are and if/how they can be met in a household context. For all of the thought I have given this, we have still only been together 2 years and change. There is still so much to learn that I sometimes despair of ever being able to live up to my own standards.

Still, here we are. Yes, there is a lot to learn, and to do, before my full vision of the Household can be realized. Yes I am very limited in the things that I can offer to help people. That’s ok. The important thing is that we make progress, do good, and live with joy.

So where does that leave us? Well, as a household of two we’re doing fine. I’ll keep poking around, as I do. Maybe something will pop up that fits life right now, maybe not. Either way, I’ve got a path to walk and while the last couple of days has been well spent licking my wounds, it’s time to get moving again.